from chapter 12:
“Things That Don’t Support My Sacred Space” journal entry
When I think about my space, I get stressed because there is not a whole lot in my space that I feel supports my spiritual side. I feel a lot of pressure to keep my house organized and clean but it’s like a losing battle because my husband and kids are really, really good at creating non-stop chaos in our house. No one picks up except me and I get exhausted by it. I do like my house and feel like it is a comfortable home for my family but I also feel like there is nowhere in my house that is just for me. Even my bedroom has our home office in it, so I feel overwhelmed even when I am lying in bed.
I guess that I’m realizing that I have not really put my own spiritual nourishment as a priority and that I haven’t created a space in my house for me to connect with my spirit. You know, my husband and I have a small home gym where we can get a basic workout in and I’m proud of us for making that a priority. We also have a home office (unfortunately, yes, in our bedroom because that’s our only available place) where we get work accomplished from home and I’m proud of us because we’re making sure to get done those things which we know are priorities.
I am just realizing, though, that there’s no space in my place for me to nourish my spirit and as a result, I definitely feel out of balance with my spirituality. I know that I am feeling fragile that way, like I am needing more spiritual strength to deal with things like my aging parents and one of my kids who has lots of learning issues.
I have felt disconnected from my spirit for years now and I really want to do more than just go through the spiritual motions, you know? When I read the book, I liked the idea of making a sacred space just for me to get back in touch with and nourish my spirit. I don’t think it’s really just a luxury anymore—I really feel like I desperately need to connect with my own spirit so that I can have the inner resources to do all that my life is asking of me right now.
I want to carve out a small space (I’m actually thinking of making a “prayer closet” in one side of my big walk-in closet) where I can go every day for just a little while to address the needs of my spirit. It suddenly just “clicked” for me: if I neglected my body the way I’ve been neglecting my spirit all these years, I might be sick or fat or something else that isn’t ideal for my well-being. If I neglected to have a place in my home to create nutritious foods for my family, that would be damaging, right?
Well, I think I need a “spiritual kitchen,” a place where I can nourish my soul. I am going to get started this weekend. I am excited about this.
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